it's really weird. feelings in general. life is like a rollercoaster, really.
soaring to the highest point possible.
plummeting to the lowest point.

i think i'm somewere near the top. for now. life's been difficult. i'm really worried about rio. she's just not herself. poor girl. sighsighsigh.

the bonuses in life? well. i'm meeting jess (<3) tomorrow, at the trafford centre. it'll be really sweet :] i'm possibly getting a horse on loan.

english weather, get your act up.
my stomach hurts.

i want to go to asda but i don't fancy the walk there.

seriously, it was so incredibly easy i almost died. i went to sami's around about 11.50am, then we proceeded to mcdonalds in liscard. yum-yum. then off to school. we met steph on the way, who was wearing odd earrings, lol. we talked a bit, then left steph to go and meet aimee and alice. went into the school playground, were sami and i pree much lol'd @ all our friends sitting there on the bench we usually hang out at.

then we went for the exam, and amy upton almost died. "two hours long!" i laughed at her, but unfortunatley her resentment rubbed off on me. section a was exceedingly boring. but easy. but boring. section b was a doddle. we got to write a story. i lied to sami about what i wrote about .. i'd rather not tell her.

yeahhh, keep it real.

p.s: i want a horse!

so here's the four one one.

i ditched beth, gina and jess. but something doesn't feel quite right.

sighsighsigh. and there's no chance of fixing it. do i want to fix it? that's the question.

[my addie is: ascend_with_ivy@hotmail.co.uk] <- add it.

i'm meeting jess e in ten days. squee!

oh boy. what to say?

i'm really, really, really stressed.

i don't want your sympathay.
you wouldn't understand anyway.

beth, gina?
tonight i need you more than ever.

and you're not here.

Current Mood: sick

man, i am really starting to get angry.

three words.
beth. and. jess.

seriously. go flaunt the fact you're hanging out somewere else. i don't f'ing care.

i don't really know what's going on with me lately :X
i get sososo angry at the slightest thing. i even feel under the weather now. i don't know why.

well, maybe i do. the whole beth-jess-gina-morgan-dana situation. ughughugh.. like, beth met up with jess today, right? so i'm feeling mega pissed off and jealous: beth and i haven't spoken for over three days, so that sucks majorly. gina? she's busy with alice and doesn't seem to want to know me anymore. morgan is a plain, compulsive user. so it seems, anyway. and dana? she's just ignoring me, and hangs out with the others.

huhn.

uh. i took my dog for a long walk today. to clear my mind, etc. she cheered me up. from the park to the dips in new brighton to the beach. we ran in and out of the water. and got soaked. hmmmm.

>.> man, i need to sort this crap out. only, none of them [except dana] are online.

oh, john, i'd reply to your comment thingio but it won't work on your page. stupid laptop, hahaha. ummm, it doesn't matter about the EA thingio. i'm gunnabuysomecheaponesoffamazon, fo'shaw.

-mel

Current Mood: angry

stupid little bitches.

man.. i feel so bad for jess right about now. some other bitch josie has been saying shit and making jess low. so me being me i go and say my mind, and josie turns on jess. ughughugh. /stabs hand

seriously.. jess is crying her eyes out about it all. and it makes me feel like shizz cuz i can't do fuck all about it and stuff.. yeah.. /sighs
jess, if you ever see this, ilu and i will always be there for you <33 you're an amazing person, as i said you just need to believe it yourself, and trust the ones you need/who will always be there for you, hun :]

in other news, i'm getting my hair cut. i'm seeing the hairdressers about it tomorrow and i want to book an appointment.

i wanna buy some sims games, two of mine are broke and shit.

[no matter how far i go, my heart remains with y o u ]

I don't get it.

Why are most of my internet friends ignoring me? Dana, Gina, Jess.

quite odd, i've noticed, how everytime i log onto a paticular internet forum, a shiver is sent down my spine. i'm not paticularly scared of the forum, coveted by notorious suck up's and desperate wannabe's, no, more like my presence is being resented; although that is to be excepted. as far as the majority is concerned, i am hackergirl. again, notorious, but also obnoxious. they've painted me to be someone who anxiously works 24/7 on a hacking programme, just so i could possess dear ally's account? quite mistaken, my dears. i had no paticular desire to set foot in her account, no no, my intentions were set on trashing stay fashionable. which, as most of you know, i succeeded with, along with a close circle of friends.

i'm tired of the malicious comments and threads created daily - if not hourly, aimed at me, but now they're even directly about me. quite pathetic of the people(s) doing it, but then again, i suppose they're the ones sinking into suffocating lowness, not me. i've resisted the temptation of taking a picture of myself with a sign reading 'HAI, I'M HACKERGIRL' and posting it on 'post pictures of yourself.' i'm beginning to contemplate the idea more and more.

in other news, i've broken my goal of reading 400+ pages in less than a day. harry potter & the order of the phoenix is quite a read.


love, hackergirl.

haha. if only.

today was good. at first. with the whole meeting-sami-after-three-fucking-weeks. lawl. we hung out for hours in the park, drinking dr.pepper and generally laughing at everything, from past events to the "yellow bit on the toy horses head." ahahha. good times, fo'sho <3

buuut yeaaaah. ally and her stupid crew are harassing me about the whole hacking email situation. well. it wasn't me. i know the group who did it. but i'm not going to disclose who they, cuz i think one of the little fuckwits hacked my msn too. assholes. yes, i did trash stay fashionable. proud of that? you bet i am.

xxox mel